“I can’t deal with this anymore… I’m tired, drained and it’s all over my head! I need to be in two places at once or I need more time!” These are the words that came out of mouth in my last working week in December. I felt overcome with emotion, stress and frustration, simply because I had so much ‘stuff’ to do and not enough time to complete it in.
Can you relate to this? Times in life when it feels a bit too much? When the most insignificant tasks seem huge because there are so many of them?
Rest is a beautiful thing
On the last day of work, even though I knew that was it, I’m technically on a break, at the back of my mind I was wondering if my clients would need something during the holidays. In fact, I knew they would… This is one of the many joys of being a small business owner, you never really get to fully switch off.
Luckily, there weren’t many requests as they were also taking a break.
I took some time for myself in the holidays, I did things I wanted to do. Went camping, climbed Mount Warning, bought cool stuff for my home, spent time with family and friends and strategically took 3 extra days of leave so that no one would be home and I could have time alone.
During the time off, I felt myself whining down. I felt less emotional and the worry took a back seat. In this time, I began reflecting over the past year and how it had started off so slowly (In the few months, I had days where I wondered if being a business owner was really for me), then things sped up slightly over the middle of the year and in the last 3 months I was almost always running or so it felt.
After reflecting, it led me to thinking about what I will be doing differently in 2019.
Here are a few things that came to mind:
Say No! Not always… only when I know in my heart of hearts that the task will cause me unnecessary stress
Rest - Take more time for myself, knowing when I need alone time and acting on it is key
Educate myself – I always thought that studying will do… (and yes, I am still studying – for like the past 10 years (excluding school) – no not the same thing, many many different things). After playing a variety of general knowledge games in the holidays, such as 30 Seconds, I realised I’m great at some topics and pretty useless at a lot of others!
Be present – Be here. Fully here. Not there. Not anywhere.
It’s okay to make mistakes in business– Wow! I’ve made many, even in the past year. I’m working on learning from these, letting them go and moving on.
So these are some of my thoughts about how I am doing things differently in 2019. Do you have any thoughts on this? Have you reflected on 2018? Do you have anything you’ll be trying to change this year? I’d love to hear from you!
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